Deep Secrets of My Heart

O fickle heart
Why must you toy?
Never a relyable source
Just an incredible force

Palpitations set it into flight
Nothing can hold it back
Confusion stikes as directions pull
Lacking guidance, like an untaimed bull

So it stays where its at
Paralysed with fear
Not wanting to leave its home
Refuzing to move from the place called comfort zone

My sould cries out
Wanting to be heard
its wish is granted
only to the absurd

Why can't we meet?
must i wait in this mosh of despair
if there is no hope
how will i cope?

To be with the one i love
who loves me in return
would make even the trees leap for joy
and all the thorns turn and burn

now with all the thorns gone
and all the trash cleaned
perhaps something can grow
before it starts to snow

when a healthy seed is planted
it takes time to grow
when its right
he'll take it slow

so i'll sit and wait back
mature into the woman
i want him to meet
it will be enough to knock him off his seat

So Father make me into that woman
rip up my earth until all the weeds are gone
mature my spirit so that i may be ready
to stand on my feet, strong, firm and steady