Deep Secrets of My Heart

Now before the shocks and gasps, yes, i am taking 15min to post! I had an interesting revelation today! My walk, my calling is not going to get easier with time. Just let that sink in... This life that i live, what i am called to sacrifice, the steps OUT of the comfort bubble.... they are going to increase! Just as with all things in life, we learn, we are challenged, we overcome! BUT it doesn't stop there, no, you go into a cyclical spin getting higher and higher..... getting closer and closer to God! On this journey you have to leave some things becuase you reach points where you CAN'T cary it any longer.... wheather this is pain, "needs" or wants, YOU(in a sense)! I know my calling, i AM called to ministry and not 'normal life' ministry (if anything can be considered normal)! On this journey, its like you are going up those parkade spirals.... you don't know whats around the corner, you don't know if there will be an opening or how that opening will work, sometimes you feel as if you can't go on, BUT you keep climbing anyway~ You face obsticals, and overcome them, but they seem to increase the further up you go, you feel as if you don't have the strength due to the fatigue you feel. Sometimes you stop and rest, sometimes you stagger backward, sometimes you have that glorious level of sunshine, fresh air and refreshing! In the end, when we finally meet our glorious maker we will look at the path, look at Him and say "it was worth it"!
Radical life doesn't mean fun life, dosen't mean safe life, doesn't mean easy life.... it DOES mean a fulfilling life, a rewarding life! Want next level blessing? It may mean you may have next level walking... it increases as you increase in skill.... in fruit!
So it means i must learn, i must grow if i want the things of God as i say i do.... i must content, i must perserver in the midst of chaos...... i will run the race, i will overcome!

P.S. Update on school: 1 poster project, 3 papers, a self eval and 4 finals to go!!! I am almost there guys! YAAAAA! I can actually BE friends with you soon!!! Its SO exciting! HAve a great thanksgiving! Muchlov to all of you!