Deep Secrets of My Heart

This is for those who are wondering 'where is Dawn?'! Well i will tell you! I am in a study prison... it is no longer a cave but has upped itself into a prison! Yes, i know, you are thinking 'Dawn you are just over-exaggerating'....i kid you not, i exaggerate none! By October 24th-ish i will have written 12 papers (i only have 8 more to go), completed 3 mid terms (only 2 to go), written 1 self eval, read a copious amount of chapters and pages and taken 4 finals! Yes, i know...it IS maddness! I WILL get through it (even though sometimes i dont believe it myself and freak-out) but i do appologise for not spending time with y'all! Please do not interpretate the study prison for me just not wanting to call or talk or hang out! At the begining of November-ish my life slows down in the study prison area! Then i am in clinical and wont have to write a googal amount of papers~ So intill then, remember that when you reach the end of yourself is when God takes over (He's better at it anyway). Remember that when you want to cry because you are so stressed or frusterated.... thats when its time to stop....... breathe.......... and just be loved! Be blessed, love you all!
I CAN do all things through Christ who strengthens me!

I love to love with the depths of my soul
for it is only love that makes us whole.
This is love without condition
a love that makes no impostitions.
A love thats warm and tender you see
I want this love to flow out of me!
Love at its purest is love
its light, peaceful like a dove.
Where there is love there is no hate...
this is a love we all should demonstrate.
Where there's no hate; where forgiveness is near
being in this place drives out fear.
Then people could come, one and all
and allow their masks to drop and fall~

This love is faithful; this love is true
this love can make all things new!
Let us learn to love with care
to open our hearts to stop being unaware!!!
This world could be a better place you see
but this revolution must start in me!

First off i am pretty sure it will be a love blog month....just to warn you in advance(!)...and I was reading my wonderful friend Carissa's blog and had some stuff i wanted to say about the words of wisdom on her blog! She wrote "Freewill: I want you to want to Be with me". This was my reaction. I see it in so many different lights: first, i think of Jesus (as corney as that may be) and how His love doesn't demand but gives us the choice! Second i think of relationships; how true love is selfless; how it want to be with the other no matter how many bolders are in the way. Last i thought about my relationship with my father, just like so many other broken relationships i understand the deep yearning of this want but that want not being fulfilled by that someone. Its amazing how people thrive on love.... how it is the makings or breakings of a person. It is easy to start a friendship...it is hard to maintain it because it requires love... but not the 'love' that we all think... this love is a love that trusts when it is hurt... it is a love that forgives when it has been wronged.... it is a love that loves even when it is unhappy or disagrees! I believe we get loving people and giving our hearts away mixed up! You CAN love AND gaurd your heart! It is possible to love with everything you have and have your heart in one piece! God has just been reminding me that if our eyes are on God and what He can do instead of people and what they can do (either for us or just in general) our hearts can face any storm that comes our way! Therefore, it should be EASY for us to love and love with a full love..... but its a choice and you can not force someone to love you... you can only love them and hope that they love you in return. They may, or may not but does that make them any less in need of our love? I'll end it with this... i challenge you to love today... find someone that you haven't said, "i love you" in awhile and say it.... and mean it! Be blessed, muchlov!!