Deep Secrets of My Heart

Hey All! I am very very excited to be going to Eagles Nest! In all of my crazyness to fit everything into the time that i have before i go i have felt alot of love and joy. I have had amazing coffee times with friends with deeper conversations which i LOVE! I have realized how protective my uncle Kent is of me, which suprizes me a little bit, but it feels wonderful to feel the love and protection that comes from knowing that he cares that much! How my auntie Laurie put on a breackfast for my dad, me and my sister when my dad told her that he was going to come up for a ball tournament just so that we could see each other. How at church, all i felt way love and joy that so many people came upt to the front to pray for my summer out at Eagles Nest! How God is SO good and faithful to come and meet with me when i started to dance out in worship! For the strength and encouragement that He brings, for people like my pastors and my old pastors that are an encouragement when they don't know it, and of course, for great friends who make me feel amazing when the simple truth is that i am no where close to even good! I love you all and will miss you when i am gone! May Dad richly bless your summers and your lives! See you when i get back! With love, Dawn
Galations 5:6 (this is the last part of the verse) The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love.
Please read Philemon 1: 4-7

*sighs* Jesus, has clobbered me in a soft, gentle way this weekend. Let me explain. I was reading about lust last weekend and how i need to make sure that i am not doing anything to make people fall.This is included in dress, attitude and talk. I also came to the huge realization that a kiss is SO much more than just a kiss and that i have been very nieve and fallen in this area. And as i was sitting there in the hammock i felt very convicted of this and was feeling terrible. I mean, who would ever take me as their wife when i have done so many things wrong! How could my loving Father forgive me of my wrongs when i do not deserve anything? At that single moment in time i felt so ugly and just in rags not worthy of a second look. But then i kept reading in my devotional and it came to the part where the writer forgives his fiance that had gone as far as sleeping with random guys in her youth and he looks at her tells her that he loves her no matter what, that it is in the past and that he still wants to marry her! ................... At this point i felt God say that i was loved and forgiven and that I DO have something special about me, and that He doesn't look at what you have done, but at your heart! As i lay in the hammock rocking, it was like my Dad had taken me into His arms and was gently rocking me as i cried, reasurring me that my husband is going to love me for me. For all of my faults and my good points, just like He does. I am sorry, i cannot do the moment justice for it happened spirit to Spirit. All i can say is that i am trying to learn to change my ways and i can only do it with the help of my Daddy. If you listen to the song "Storm" by Lifehouse (....I know that alot of their stuff isen't my personal pick but this ones good) it was the tone of my weekend. Thank-you Jesus for Fresh revelations! Take care!

Kapow, God is SOOOO good! This week God has been so overwelmingly amazing! I will start by saying that i have gotten LOTS of work this week and that i am getting paid more than i thought i would! Thank-you Jesus for blessing my finances and my relationship with my older brother whom i work with. Thank-you for a stress-free job where i can go and not think about what i am doing and sing praises at the top of my lungs and get engrosed in worship! *Side note- today i got so engulfed by his presence that i felt that it was only God and i down in the basement we were digging! I love when God loves on me!* The next super AMAZING thing that happened was my friend Ilanas birthday. She had this party at a bar/club thing. Now you have to understand that even though i do not mind bars i have made the decision not to go to clubs and this particular club-bar i really do not like. So i was debating on weather or not to go and even though i really did not want to go i decided to go because this is one of my really good friends! This is the part where God comes in, i was later getting to the place and when i got there i only had to spend 5 min. there before we decided to go back to Ilanas and just talk! Thank-you God for helping in difficult situations! And finally, thank-you Jesus that my week has had days free to see and spend time with my sister of whom i will miss dearly! Hope that you enjoyed our program on the life of Dawn- be blessed and have a fantabulous day!