Deep Secrets of My Heart

I was reading my friend Carissa's blog the other day and i had a great picture come to mind! I was having kinda a crappy day and was feeling really overwelmed about school, work...well, life in general! I was/am feeling like my strength is running short and i was having a hard time dealing with it! When i went to go read Carissa's blog she was saying that every time that she loses control and is about to wave a flag of surrender is the time where He lifts you higher! A thought then rolled into my mind and i could hear pastor Landon saying that the time where we run out of our own umpf and stop trying to do things oon our own strength is when God steps in and does maraculous things!

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From there my brain fliped the page and i recieved a wonderful illistation: i was sitting in the water with my prune, water-soaked body frantically trying not to drown. I flailed for quite some time; growing weaker with each passing second until i could no longer keep myself afloat. My body suddenly stopped and fear tore through me as i thought i knew what was going to happen next. I was going to drown, and as i started to sink i closed my eyes and cried out for my Daddy to come rescue me! I didn't see anything come but noticed that i was staying afloat and not sinking! What could this be? How am i staying afloat? It was then that i noticed that i was wearing a lifejaket! I had been wearing it the whole time! God was right there all along, all he wanted me to do was to stop trying to do it all alone and on my own strength and just stop and rest in the fact that He has me!

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I CAN be still and know that He is God! That its ok to be weak for God says "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore i will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why for Christs' sake, i delight in weakness, in insults, in hardships, in persecution, in difficulties. For when i am weak, then I am strong. (2 Chor. 12:9,10) And it is my gracious Lord who gives me strength! (2Samuel 22:33) I think that its time for me to stop trying to push God away and do it on my strength! Gods weakest is stronger than my strongest! Its time, God take over my life, lets use your strength instead of mine, lets do it your way instead of Dawns! *kisses*amen!

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I hope that this was enjoyable and that you look and see who is the muscle of your life-you or God?

Be blessed, love you all!

God has been showing me how little faith our society has these days. This is especially true when it comes to love! This is something that God has radically changed my thinking in. I use to think that there wasen't "the perfect one" for me but when you married that person becomes the "perfect one". I also thought that God brings people into your life that would suit you well and you got to pick. Now, even though i still think that these things are true i realize how little faith i had that God would bring someone who is PERFECT for me. Now don't get this mixed up with that person being perfect, i know that he wont be perfect, he is human but he will match me perfectly! There are lots of guys who would be good for me and who, if i chose to marry, i would have a great marriage and life with. But my question is why settle? Why settle for great when you can have perfect? Why choose to be second when you could be first? Some people have come back with the argument that God doesn't make things clear and if you miss the guy because you are wanting a for sure answer then you will end up alone. Well, whats so wrong about being alone, hey i don't know about you but if i end up chillin with God my whole life that would be gnar! I would rather just be chillin with God because i was too careful than marry the wrong one because i wasen't careful! Don't get me wrong, i have a passion to get married and have kids but i shouldn't need them to make me happy in life! God is enough for me, he can provide that love i long for. God has promised me a husband, i have faith that he will be perfect for me in every way that God wants! I have had my heart broken and know the fickkleness that is love, its even hurting right at the moment, BUT i have the peace that passes all understanding and i am wading in that. So Daddy, please be with my husband today and hold him in Your hands. I pray that he would be continuing to grow and mature in you and that you would lead him on the right paths. I pray that you would provide all the things that he needs and that whatever his hand touches that it would be blessed! I love you Daddy, *kisses* Dawn I hope that this challenges some of your thinking on faith! Be blessed, love you all!