Deep Secrets of My Heart

Wow, today was AMAZING! God is SO good! Let me explain.... today one of my good buddies Jason spoke at Strathcona Christian Academy~ It started out kinda slow.... felt as if the young people weren't really connecting.... it got a little bit better as worship ended but not by much.... then Jason felt that God wanted to heal people...... he got people just to stand in there seat and then we asked God if He would come and move and heal the people that were in need of it.... and geuss what! HE DID! The leadership recieved words about knees and asthma and stomach problems and they were all healed! God is crazy good! I love how when you take a step of obediance that God pulls through! There were lots of knees, a coupple who had asthma and i think it was 4 that had stomach problems! It was cool... we also had some family issues, stress, headaches, fatigue... it was fantastical (thanks to Jon Jon for that word!)! It was funny though.... i was having a hard time praying a lot... it was mostly just words for people.... which i enjoy.... i like when God has words for people.... i have to say that sometimes we always ask for things from God and forget to listen to what He has to say.... and we forget to thank Him after all is said and done.... so after it was all over the team took a moment and just thanked God for showing up and for healing the sick! THANK YOU JESUS! You roc my sox! To everyone i hope that you have an AMAZINGLY FANTABULOUS DAY! Love you all! *hugs all around*

Bruised and broken
here at your feet
torn and tattered
its You i want to meet

laying my burden
humbled at Your cross
its You i want Lord
without You i'd be lost

I want more of You
I just need more of you (x2)

i cut myself open
You tend to my wounds
i push away Lord
and set my heart on cruise

Tried to do it on my own
i tried to make it all alone
but without Your love, without Your grace
without Your touch i am erased

(so i'm)
Letting go of my religion
Letting go of my pride
Giving You all control
in this failing life

theres nothing i can hide... in this life

Here is an old peice of mine.... its raw, it hurt at the time, and i am pretty sure if you poke at it... it will bite you back. Hope you enjoy the honest rare steak......


How Am i
to evEn knoW wHat love is.
For to Us, it is oNly an oBsessIon
an obSEssion of the mind that takes oVEr
ouR humAnity and hEarts
Until our iNNerbeaing is overbeARing


To talK
of such "wonDerous lOve"
(at least on earth)
What loVe would Be
is a fAtal laPs
of reaLity
From your mInd
to mE.


The game of love
is harsh
This beCause
a GamE it is
tWo minds conSPiring
which move to maKe
to wIN
the cOUrtsHip of aNother

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~





Realizing that this peice is a little harsh i need to remind my readers that this is not me..... well it is what i wrote, but i love love. Love is a powerful thing and this is how i felt when it was toyed with.... i geuss the lesson is to not to mess with love... love is powerful, but it bites if played with... don't play with it! Be blessed!

*sings* "The joy of the Lord is my strength (X4)... ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha (x3) the joy of the Lord is my strength!"- feel free to join in at any time and if u are going to the ranch this summer be prepared to hear it.. Pastor Landon likes to sing it in the AM! Do you actually know how much these words are true? When you look at life from a joyus stance do you not feel better even under difficult circumstances? Do you not feel empowered when you have that joyus outlook on life? Do you not feel better about yourself? I know i certianly do! Attitude is everything... i hate to burst your bubble but if your attitude sucks about something normally that thing will suck! However, if you look at the positive side of things and make the best out of ALL life's happenings then things don't seem so bad! I often wonder how God sees things... i want to see things as God does! To look at a person and not see whats on the outside but what is on their heart! To look at my situations and see the good instead of the bad! To know that everything will be good just because we have God on our side! I have noticed this.... i can have a good time at any time, sometimes i have to put more effort in, mabey change whats in my heart or change my thoughts from 'i feel like a peice of poop or i am in a bad mood' to 'i WILL have a good time and what can i contribute to this'! Just think of the powerful force that is words.... these aren't outwardly words, not ones that you and everyone else can physically hear... they are the battle of our minds eye. What we are thinking, effects how we are feeling~ I love that one verse that says "do not only think of things down here on earth but turn your eyes to things above" (ok...i admit it, i don't have my bible right here so its not exact...i am pretty sure its in Colossians)! Good things are stored in Heaven (above)... the earth is kinda shabby, perhaps it just comes down to this.... if i have my eyes on God, how can i focus on the bad? anyway... i am rambling! Be blessed, keep your attitude fresh!