Deep Secrets of My Heart

As i look at and reflect on this past year i am quite thankful! I am thankful for the people in my life who matter so much to me! I look at some of my girls that i mentor and see the amazing year of growth and maturity that they have undergone, and how much they have blessed me! I look at my friends who have stuck by my side even when they had reason not to... you guys are worth your weight in gold! I have learned so many lessons and look up to you! I know that some of you have helped me accept who i am... just as i am...(precious cargo) and helped me veiw myself in an appropriate way! I know that i will always have you to go to with fire truck beds or akward moments! I look at my family and some of the crap that we have endured patially due to me, and how their love for me shows SO much! My grandparents who send me scripture and are my prayer warriors, my uncle Kent and auntie Jo who always graciously open their home to me and look out for my well being, for my sister and brother-in-law who alwasy have my best interests in mind, even though it may not be my own intrests, and my parents who, through all of the stresses, still love me just the way i am and support whatever i decide to do! I know that this year is going to be a great one with lots of the unexpected in my life, which is partly scary but party exciting... either way i know that i can handle anything with Gods help! So here is to the memories of 2005 and a big leap into 2006 with bright new memories to be made!
"Your a goat"-Connie
"So mofia partner owl who should we kill next?"-Denae
"I get it"- Loril
"Fear is the opposite of love"-Matt
"and i am just angry and trowing a tantrum"- Dez
"Lets call it Dawn's Dance Spot"-Meg
"On that note i am going to take a cold shower"-Justin
"No, no, i have a bootie!"-Deb
"Thats gorgeous darling"-Mark
"I was wondering if you could give me info on that osterich farm.." -Robbie
"You would to sicko"-Riley
"I love you babe"-D.J.

Hey guys here is a peice that i wrote just under a year ago... i wrote it comming out of a painful experience. I am putting it on now because i have realized the lessons that i have learned and the growth that has taken place! Praise Jesus for that! Hope that you enjoy it, Be blessed!

Was my love not good enough
for you to hold near?
was my heart not warm enough
that you trampled it on the floor
Did my words mean nothing
Have my actions been empty
O how quickly we forget
the important lessons in life
Things that i thought i taught
now gone with the summers brease

How cheap you have left me
it has sucked my innermost glee
i feel no joy
i feel no pain
it has left a vat you see

In the comming days
with my heart so unsure
the choice that i must make weighs
for when i make it
i wish it to be holy and pure

Father, could you fill me with your joy
Can you wrap me in your love
all i am wanting is to be used
your servant
to do your will
and give glory to the one above

mmmm... Christmas time, a time to spend with loved ones cosyed up in front of a warm fire with a cup of coco! I love Christmas! I was sitting by the Christmas tree tonight, music playing, coco in my hand, my puppy fast alseep on my chest and i alowed myself to daydream.. i love to day dream, its a whole world of possiblilties running through my head of what it will be like with my own husband and children to cuddle up with and pamper over the holidays! Ii think about which traditions that i will keep and what new traditions i could start! i think about what kind of holday treats that will be my children's favorites.... ahh sweet daydreams! Warm fuzzies come at Christmas-time! So here is to all, here is my little rant on Christmas just so you all know how much i love Christmas! Do me a favour, perk up, grab someone you love and show them that you love them! I had a wise friend who once told me that fear is the opposite of love and i can see how thats very truthful even in my own life! See, i have come to the conclusion this Christmas that i am not very good at the whole love thing, i thought i was... but i am not! I gaurd myself because of past hurts and have troubble accepting love and giving love at times due to my fear of love and fear of messing love up! But then i realized that if it is love, then even if i screw up every once in awhile that its ok.... because that love will love through my quirks and my fears! Love is a blind force that one must have faith in if you want to have anything happen! So, to all of you who have already taken that leap, congrats, for those of you about to take the leap, leap with purpose, and those not even at the edge, take a coupple steps closer... after all its Christmas....... love is what its all about!
(sorry if i have butchered this, i had 2 thoughts running at the same moment)

BE BLESSED, HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND LOVE TO YOU! *HOLY KISS*

More of the Lord... a desire that strikes the heart of a soul, a deep longing that urges to be filled! Perhaps a day, just a day, in order to bask in the presence of the utmost high. totally focused. distractions fade. and a waterfall starts to flow. I understand the deep longing of that soul, for it resides deep within and resonates in me as well!

Morning comes
He gently greets
His face, the first i meet

Singing sweet praise
to the Glorious king
to you, offerings i will bring

So refreshing
So sweet
To bow at Jesus feet

Strength comes to those who humble
Strength comes to those in need
He resonates. He's all i need

Swift steps
Come to dance
The movement strikes your heart like a lance

The night ends and all else fades
my focus on my creator
my one and only saviour

Well all here is an update on Dawns life! I love my practicum!!! I am at the Royal Alec in the surgical department! This week unfortunatly was a bleh! I have been sick all week and in this sort of meh mood that is so moot i can't put my finger on why i am like this! Well that just means i have to sit and watch another chick flick! I am so out of season... it is not like Dawn to be out of season, perhaps its my lack of snow! Well enough of me jabbering... i am very excited about my little Cawn airline adventure that is going to take place after exams! And i am very excited about the new coupple of sermons that i am doing. One is titled "Did you rape Gracie?" and its about how we as 20th century christians abuse Gods grace and my other "Rooted Here There or Anywhere" about being rooted in God and what that means! Anyway, i need to get more sleep so have a good night *and to all a good night*
P.S. I have no idea about the title and i picked the colour because it looked like hot coco!